Current mood:

content

so, day 3 of classes.

which means the first class of every class has occurred. ugh.

life is about as chaotic as it can possibly get, but i'm still ontop of things, which is encouraging. i've kept up my counseling sessions, not because i'm crazy as i thought for so long, but just as a place where math and aeronautics don't ever have to come up. the counselor dude is a really nice guy, and all the people in the office are awesome. hell, i recommend walking in and talking to the receptionist bernice for a few minute if your head is spinning. she's a good woman.

the network office demands a lot of my attention now that the assistant manager thing is real. i know i asked for it and it's going to look good on my resume (management finally!!) but can't i just get rid of some of the greater annoyances?! tims sheets are due today which makes for an interesting conglomeratinog of real and ficticious hours. oh well, federal government and all that. glad we don't get paid out of the school. it's bad enough that i have to pay taxes, but everyone pays taxes. it would be horrible if i had to pay tuition so i could get paid to work. so instead i work the job that pays somewhere over $6.15 to go insane. one of these days i'm going to graduate and get a real job with a big salary! oh wait.... that's may... huh.

yes, graduation is in may. i have somehow managed to get this degree squished into 4 years, with no help of AP credits (beyond calc1). it's not pretty, but hey-- we all make sacrafices, and mine was my gpa. and now my reward is financial insecurity once i graduate. stupid needing a job, needing health care, needing a retirement plan now.... theoretically i could have done all this stuff if i'd worked at target this summer. but instead i chose to wait another year.

freedom of choice. ain't it a bitch?

i got elected choir president and i'm drowning in frustration because of it. however, being one of those control freaks... well i see it more as control-needy... i'm glad i'm in the thick of, otherwise i'd get that horribly confused feeling. so shit happened, but i definitely feel better knowing i'm the one taking care of it. but once choir gets going it will be as it will be. we only have to take care of the homecoming basketball game and a part of the concert.

classes are going to be the biggest headache of them all. TRE makes no sense to me whatsoever, and i have a feeling that the whole class is going to be like that. "here, write what i write and you'll know everything." not going to be so good, kinda like dhainaut actually. prelim shoudl be interesting. i know a bunch of the guys in there so i feel better about working with everyone. most of the others i've never met, but oh well. i got cornered by all the uniforms on monday and got claimed by ken. it was hilarious; i doubted that he even remembered me. the stab and con, that old nemesis, well eastlake is the one teaching it and that should be a little more my speed. less math. math is fun, but not the kind of math that doens't produce an answer. lessee.... EE2 is going to be really interesting. inovy is a character, now that i'm not scared of him. peitho already hates him, but shit happens. we keep telling all the little students to just suck it up and do what the professor says... time to pratice what we preach; oh that hurts mom... why'd you program me like that? and pandora is in my composites class which makes it 10 times more interesting. go german girl!!

those are my ultimate responsibilities for this semester. my goal: to limit the mental breakdowns, to live how i want to live (because really, i'm 21 and i should while i have no real obligations), avoid limiting my possibilities and oppotrunities, and to enjoy life a little.

woo hoo for a new semester!!!!!!!!!!!! happiness, i have a sam i have a tiffany i have a bonnie i have a paulie i have a nick i have an eddie i have a carl i have a cilla i have a tim i have an adam i have people again and i have a way to get places during the daylight andi have to get going right now or i'm going to be late for my meeting.

more stuff to do than just sit around and stare at the walls!

joy!